The Trayvon Martin trial began this week with jury selections that are proving to be difficult for multiple reasons.
The Trayvon Martin case hits home for me for many reasons, not just because I too am an African American, but because the small city this happened in, Sanford, Florida is a suburb of Orlando, the city I live in. As a matter of fact, one of the schools I was offered to transfer to is located in Sanford.
Another reason it hits home for me is because as an African American male I have faced racial profiling many times in my life, especially when I was a teenager.
When I was a young teen it was very common for me to be followed around in stores and I can remember at least twice when I was actually stopped and confronted by a store worker for “stealing” although I wasn’t. My friends and I used to have a joke that once we entered a store they would have a special code they would say over the intercom to alert them that black people were in the store.
When I was young I thought it was a necessary hassle, sometimes I even thought it was funny because the store clerks would try not to be obvious, but they were always obvious to me. I was, even at a young age always aware however that I was seen a a criminal and “guilty” even though I had committed no crimes.
As an older teen things got worse, but still, being a teenager I didn’t take it personal and even thought it was funny at times.
Driving my mother’s car, on a weekly basis I would get pulled over, sometimes searched, but always inconvenienced for absolutely no reason.
I remember my friends and I would go to Dennys and sometimes be there for an hour or longer before we were ever even asked what we wanted to order. At the time I didn’t think anything of it other than bad service, but when I got older, I learned about the discriminatory practices Dennys used in some locations to deter African American customers and have no doubt that is what was going on then, we just didn’t know it.
Being harassed by the police was so common that I started to feel like a criminal whenever I saw one, expecting them to stop and search me for no reason which sometimes they did.
In particularly I remember an incident in which I went to visit with some friends in a gated community and decided to take a walk around the block. Well I didn’t even get half way around the block before I was approached by security and asked what was I doing there. He stated that someone had called about a suspicious person in the neighborhood. I couldn’t help, but to think that the only thing that truly made me suspicious was my skin color, because unlike Trayvon Martin I wasn’t wearing a hoodie and it was daylight out.
The Trayvon Martin case hits so close to home because I, like millions of other black and brown men around our country can identify with his situation. I don’t want to go into detail here because I don’t know all the details, but what I do know is what we know from Mr. Zimmerman himself.
He saw Trayvon Martin and for whatever reason thought that he was up to no good. We know that Trayvon was doing nothing wrong, yet he was viewed as a criminal and guilty automatically, much like I have been multiple times in my life.
For this reason, I will write a bigger, more in-depth article behind some of the psychological reasons I believe this tragic incident happened.
As a young African American male, I took the harassment by store clerks and law enforcement as a necessary price I had to pay for being young and black. I didn’t take it personal, but as I got older and became a college educated adult with a professional job, on the rare occasions I felt harassed because of my skin color, I no longer found it funny or necessary, but extremely irritating and degrading.
About two years ago on my way to work, dressed in a shirt and tie I got pulled over by a police officer. I actually knew he was going to pull me over before he did it because it was just him and me on the road. I didn’t mind the stop because I knew I didn’t do anything wrong and after checking my license and verifying I had no warrants, instead of letting me go he asked me if I had any guns and drugs in the car and if I minded if he searched it.
I was shocked, largely because I had assumed that this type of harassment would stop when I got older and certainly once I went to college and became a professional, but it didn’t, it just became less frequent.
About four months ago I was pulled over by an undercover truck with four police officers, asking me again if I had drugs and guns. It was only when one of the officers recognized me that they eased up and immediately let me go. It was dark and if I had mistakenly took this undercover stop as a carjacking (which I initially was afraid it was) it could have ended tragically for me.
Just yesterday on Facebook, a friend of mine and a successful store manager wrote jokingly, “The first time not getting pulled over for being black I get 2 tickets. I think I prefer them holding me at gunpoint and searching for guns and drugs, it’s cheaper.”
The Trayvon Martin case resonates with me because it could have easily been me or one day, my son.
I think this unfortunate situation has a lot to teach us not just about race relations, but about the way we receive and perceive information through our minds based on preconceived notions which we will explore in my next post.
7 thoughts on “The Trayvon Martin Tragedy And Psychology, Part One: My Personal Thoughts And Experiences With Racial Profiling”
My husband is Hispanic and has had similar experiences. Nobody should experience that. I’m sorry this country has not grown beyond race anxiety yet, I don’t know if they will ever get there. I have no answers. 😦
Thanks for sharing. I definitely think that the vast majority of people in our country care more about each other than the color of our skin or our ethnicity, it’s just that when things like random police stops, searches or racial remarks happen, it’s like a slap in the face and the older we get, the more offensive it is and the more we want to keep that sort of behavior from happening to younger people who may not know their rights or may not know that instead of going back and forth with an officer and ending up in jail they should just take their badge number and file a complaint.
ThNks you for posting this. Too many white people don’t believe this really happens. Prejudice runs deep and unfortunately isn’t going away as fast as I once believed it would.
We need to be careful in our judgments that we don’t do the same thing; not all whites are prejudiced against minorities. Lumping a group, any group, together because of the color of their skin is risky. There are good in all races and there are bad in all races.
Thanks for responding, I totally agree, which is why the next part of that post focuses more on psychology and not necessarily race. I attended a largely majority white University and can’t remember one incident where I ever felt prejudiced against and it was some of the best times of my life.
Agreed. I am white. But I was more optimistic about racial equality when I was younger. After all these years, I continue to see and hear the same racial slurs I heard when I was young. I am talking about during and after the civil rights movement when we were all so optimistic. Progress has been much slower than I expected at that time.
Yeah, it just changes. Reading certain blogs or participating in online forums, even ones that have nothing to do about race, I’ll see some random racist comment and the who forum will turn into this back and fourth argument over race when it has nothing to do with the main topic. Racist people just bring all of us down.